Day 1

So last night I went to bed a little late so I decided I’d sleep in until ten this morning. However, I had some weird dreams overnight, of me being sick with the flu in one of them. In another one my cousin invited the family over to visit her “new house” that she bought (she is too young right now to own a house so that made no sense to begin with). When we got there (for some reason it was one of my uncles and I that went first, my parents showed up after) my uncle and I saw my cousin break open a window by the door and it looked like she unlocked it from the window. We wondered why she did that to her own house. It was a big house too it looked expensive so we were very suspicious. We went into the house anyways. She said she had locked the keys inside and that is why. I was feeling very uncomfortable. She showed me around this huge house. And showed me her room which was like two rooms really like a bedroom with like an small TV room attached and an ensuite. The longer I was in there the more anxious I got and slowly started to feel a possible anxiety attack coming, because I thought she was breaking the law, however before anything happened I woke up. It was 8am my stomach was sooo upset I felt sick and anxious.
I think it must have been the anxiety of my driving test today. You see I already failed it a couple times. I am a very good driver, I even took a driving instructor out with me before my one test to make sure I was doing okay. He said I drive better then some of his other students who have gotten their license and I’m safer then a lot of people on the road these days. He said there was no way I could fail.. but then nerves got the best of me and I screwed up both tests by doing something dumb that I would never do any other day behind the wheel. I was nervous this morning that I might again do something dumb and I was already quite embarrassed and it frustrates me that I'm so stupid….ANYWAYS….it all ends with me passing and officially being a g2 licensed driver so I can now drive by myself yay! And on highways for our drive to Quebec to give my lovely boyfriend a break from the ten hour drive!
So I guess there was no reason to be so nervous because I did it. I just needed to relax and over come the anxiety. I actually started focusing my mind on this blog and what I wanted to write and then I calmed down. Anyways tonight doesn't look too exciting, going to drive my bf to work, and take my sister out from some ice cream but that's about it. I'd like to post some pretty pictures of the pretty weather today for you but at this point I have not yet taken any but maybe I will add a few on later.

My mom and dad got me a small cake to celebrate lol! its lotsa chocolate with some caramel in the middle and some peanuts and covered in plastic rings with cars on them WOW.

**Dee**