An achievement

So this is a couple days old news now but I should share it I think...

I went to my friends sisters stage and doe on the weekend. All of my high school friends were there -after a year off and three years of college these people have hung around. we have grown a little bit more distant but they are still around and supportive and I love that. I have been avoiding a few stag and doe's recently because of the anxiety. I also have been feeling a little sick lately and had to take Friday off work so Saturday I was a little bit nervous going. The Man and I decided we would just go and make an appearance and stay for a little bit then go. I got there though and had a good time seeing the old crowd and I pulled through almost the entire night. When we had started to decide we would stay longer we said we would stay until the draws were done then go. The stag and doe was scheduled to go until 1:00 and the raffle was done at quarter after twelve. The man suggested we stay until the end so I went and grabbed a drink (my first and only drink for the night because unfortunately alcohol can mimic the effects of an anxiety attack and actually cause one or cause other problems if mixed with the meds). I think because I had it set in my head we would leave after the raffle my mind and body decided it didn't want to be there anymore. Then I started thinking about the alcohol - even though one drink has never hurt in the past. I started to feel a numbness in my arms so I pulled aside my friend and one of the other girls I trust and told them I may be bordering on attack. They both understood and I went home.

I know it seems like the anxiety won but it didn't. I got through much longer than I had intended to. We got there at nine I figured I would stay an hour max, but I stayed until 12:30 this was huge.

One of the girls is moving out of the city in a few days, this Friday they are having a going away Hawaiian themed party. I work all seven days this week but I am going to go they are all short shifts anyways and I want to say goodbye so we will see how that goes :)

***Dee***