Oh Hey...

...did you miss me? Probably not because I'm pretty sure that Zoe and my Bf are the only people who read this. But that's okay, I'm glad they do, and I still like writing because it helps me feel good.

So where have I been over the last few weeks? Working, a fair bit. I have been working diligently on editing the videos for the makeup artist and chiropractor which has been going very well. The first set are finished and after I come back from Quebec I should be getting started on the next set.  check out one of the videos (best viewed in HD if your computer can handle it)







This week is going to be a very busy week. I am working today with one of my professors on some big video shoots for a nearby hospital so I should be busy with that all day. Thursday is my favourite day at the store its teacher appreciation day. At this point I am working a double because I always do our teacher appreciation day features showing off what our new services and products are, hooking them up with the best deals and showing them the ways we show our appreciation for them. Its lots of fun. But the schedule got mixed up so right now im working all day. Friday is another video shoot for the hospital so its gonna be long. Good thing I go for a massage on Wednesday. I've been getting some acupuncture, chiropractic adjustments and massages lately as well. I have really bad shoulder problems but the treatments have helped big time.

Sunday morning at 2am my bf and my parents, little bro and I head out to Quebec so thats exciting as well.

I think part of the reason I am writing today though is to manage some anxiety. my levels have been high lately with all the working I have been doing, and some stress. One of my uncles is being a total ass to my mom and family and its driving me crazy. I have also had a lot of tummy troubles too lately so everything is adding up and making me anxious about being late to places, or messing something up, or having to leave early or the long 10 hr drive to Quebec. I feel like I'm losing some of my control of it again. I haven't had an attack really just a lot of the beginnings of one and then a constant feeling of being crampy, and tired and weak all day with the odd sensation of being outside of my body if that makes sense.

I need to figure out how to make that go away. That in itself makes me anxious.

For the most part I am excited about everything but there is just that subconcious thing.

Anyways enjoy my video there is another one on that youtube channel. Wish me luck this week, and I'm sure you will hear from me either during or after my trip :)

**Dee**